I joined, with bad condition, 2 meetings, one for a group assighment, the other for running society.
Fortunately, either person was intimate to me and I can keep calmness. I had different feelings in each meeting.
I felt a sense of contribution to a team member in the former and the latter gave me a motivation to do small steps because I am proud of my editting skill of short video to be higher than all members considering outputs and the amount they spend to create them.
I feel so negative right now, but through such role I have, I wanna pick up my confidence even in Australia.